Beauty in the Chaos

Lately, I’ve been feeling really low. Some mornings, even getting out of bed feels like a fight, and then I remember I’ve got to get the girls ready for school lol. And on top of it all, I’ve been feeling distant from God. Honestly, I’ve been running from Him. 🤦🏾‍♀️

What’s strange is that I haven’t even wanted to feel better. I’ve been sitting in this depressed mindset because, in a way, it feels easier. Quiet. Low effort. Like I can just exist without having to talk or do too much. And for now, that’s where I’ve been.

But then moments like today happen. I’m outside pushing my son on the swing, looking around my backyard. There are leaves everywhere that need to be raked. Dog poop to clean. Random toys all over the place. The kind of chaos that usually stresses me out. But today it all looked so beautiful. The sun was warm. The air felt calm. I saw the trampoline, the swing set, the deck my husband built.

And even though I lowkey hate this old house and dream of something more modern, I felt grateful. Truly grateful. Because there are people going through so much more, with so much less, and here I am complaining about things that don’t even matter.

God has blessed me and my family. He has carried us through storms that felt like hurricanes. And yet, we’re still standing. His grace continues to show up, even when my mood doesn’t.

So even in this heavy season, I know God is still working. If He hasn’t stopped moving mountains for me, the least I can do is get up every morning and thank Him.

Lord, thank You for every single thing I have. Thank You for everything You’ve done for my family. Thank You for Your grace, mercy, and constant support. I ask that You bless every soul reading this. Help us walk in Your purpose, and let everything we do be intentional for You. Amen.

Never stop in the middle of the storm. Look for the goodness in every battle. And remember—you are never facing it alone.

Thanks for being here. I’m so glad you came

— from somewhere in the chaos 🌻